finalized
Monday, September 5th, 2005"sometimes the heart truly sees what is invisible to the eye"
….it’s that time again…the heartbreak i dreaded going into this relationship. Funny thing is i have not shed ONE single tear. … strange? not really…It means I’m either stronger than I was 3 years ago, or the feelings were not there afterall or it has not hit me yet….It’s been a month since I last saw him (this is while we’re "dating") I saw him today at club phoenix…how did i feel when he walked past me, stared at me and continued walking past me pretending he didn’t know me? My first thought was "will he stop and actually talk? WRONG!!" I was furious and sympathetic. Furious because I wasted my time caring for someone who evidentely did not feel the same in return and sympathetic for the next girl to be his "gf". What have i learned from this? That first impressions are ALWAYS deceiving and that busting out the "L" word too early into the relationship either means the guy is bored and says it to make the girl happy, or because he has "needs" to fulfill (unsuccessfully might i add). where he ends up playing hide and seek. Mostly hide but no seeking. What’s wrong with caring for someone and ask for a little in return? Is that a little too much to ask? Or is it because there’s a third ‘wheel’ involved? OFFICIALLY declaring myself SINGLE!!! No talk necessary, not worth my time and energy, it’s evident what needs to be done…..too tired to think further…..nite
